i have something to say.
oh yea.
what i am about to say.
does not make me a drama queen.
because it is the truth.

i burden people.
i give people troubles.
i don't deserve to live.
because it seems i just irritate people.
what is most is that i really really do burden people.
i am annoying.
and if you think im a gold digger. mostly cos i think of money most of the time when it comes to boys. isn't that shallow?
i wont deny it.
cos i myself think so too.
i will not point out excuses.
i am immature.
i give people wrong impressions.
i make people do things they dont want to which makes me bossy.
i am a bitch.
i won't deny that either.
because once i turn into one, they're too scared to point that out.
i made a guy no longer think of me as a girl but as a guy and treats me as one.
i would not point out his flaws.
for i have made most mistake here.
i burden people in ways that are COUNTLESS.
i irritate people alot.
i am fake.
i wont deny that either.
cos the things i do or say are fake sometimes.
maybe cos i lie alot.
i have a rude mouth and a loud one too.
the fact that people keep quiet instead of just saying it to my face.
OF COURSE ill dislike you a lil bit. but it will go away because of your honesty.

so here i shall make a conclusion. if you guys just be straight to the point, i would very much appreciate. and it would all make our lives more easier.
yes i am in depression and yes alot of frustration in my head.
these feelings wont leave me until some miracle happens.

p/s Yes, home isn't a very wonderful place right now.
pp/s I would very much appreciate if you say harsh words to open my eyes. it would make you a bitch but it helps me in more ways than one. and just think of it as a good thing.