i cried. in class. cos i needed to cry. cos it was suppressing. and the pressure. and i felt better. and like some conflict in class cos the teacher wanted to switch places cos of the noisiness. argh. i got to sit next to priyanka. but then english teacher came in switched everything back into other places according to how she felt like it. and that my mind was conjuring up ideas of how to get priyanka to be closer to me. cos i need her. cos if i didnt. i'd be screwed. totally. in other words im a bitch who needs a friend and the friend is like an angel and still is patient with me. had prefects meeting after school. and like, we were talking bout camp and all. went home this happened.

kaajal's mom had a surprise party and like my mom told me to go and if i didnt she would start questioning me.

and sam and i went. i mean i literally didnt know bout it till my mom told me like half an hour before the party started and i just came back from school. and like i had to rush and all.

and like kaajal's mom wanted to call may may but like it was too late. wait, i think she did. did you pick up the phone may?
i was wondering why may may wasn't there.
wish you were there.


i didnt even felt like i fit in.
cos i didnt know there was a theme and you had to be all dressed up .
i thought it was a small thing so i didnt dress up.
and like i was thinking over and over again whether i should go back and change or at least do something bout my appearance.
i wore shorts and a t-shirt. like wth.
so the party started. i had to do something or they would start coming to me and start questioning me why i was so sad.
so i gave up.
they had charades. and t or d but it wasnt so extreme. and drawing on the board blindfolded. and we danced. i guess chetna cheered me up. she is always so happy. reminds me of priyanka.

and like, we ate. lots of food. and im full. full till i dont feel so good. and i ended up cleaning the floor cos i had no idea what they were talking bout. left out.

sam had to leave after we surprised kaajal. ditch me la.

came home with 2 chains on my phone and this scented thinggy. the necklace thinggy.